There’s been a voice developing in my head over the past year. This voice takes shards of my day and polishes and smoothes until it’s something I don’t mind putting in my window....souvenirs of my motherhood adventure. A toddler meltdown over a popsicle that in the moment makes me want to bang my head against the refrigerator door turns into a funny story that reminds me how far we’ve come from middle of the night feedings. And when I really tune into the voice, I often find insight into God and His love for me. This blog is the recording studio for that voice. My hope is that the souvenirs of my day serve as entertainment and encouragement to those of you who are banging your head against a refrigerator door. And that you’re inspired to find a voice of your own that turns these trying moments into treasured souvenirs.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

I have arrived.....ALMOST



The day I have been awaiting for over five years finally arrived.  I packed up lunch, water toys, a picnic blanket, A BOOK, and we headed to the splash park.  We hiked up the hill, found a spot in the shade, and ate our lunch.  Of course, a bathroom break was needed within the first fifteen minutes, but then all three boys settled into playing.  They stayed in the designated play area.  They didn’t cry because the water sprayed them.  They didn’t pick a fight with other kids.  They just played.  And, for the first time ever, I pulled the book out of my bag, lounged on the picnic blanket and read.  Hallelujah!  Each page turn was a strut down the runway of motherhood.  I have arrived!


Okay, that might be overstating it just a bit.  Since my arrival yesterday to the gym’s childcare center found one of my boys sitting in timeout.  When I inquired about his offense, a very sweet college-aged girl explained that he had “gone to the bathroom” outside on the turf.  I definitely consider this an offense, but one I could understand.  Then she continued to explain he had “gone to the bathroom” on the play house that was out on the turf.  My head immediately turned into a pressure cooker, which must have been apparent because she apologetically explained that the house was all taken apart in a pile, and if she was three she would probably feel like that was a good place to go!  I should have gotten her number then and there and made her our prime babysitter!  But instead I apologized, and shuffled one shamed, crying boy and his two brothers out before they made me sign an incident report.  


Yesterday was not a shining, strut-your-stuff kind of motherhood day.  But today?  Today I will strut, enjoy my book, and pray that there are more book-reading-at-the-park days than pee’d-on-the-gym-playhouse days in my future.  Please God!  Please God!  Please God!  Let there be more reading and less peeing.  Amen.

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